FAMILY AND FRIENDS!
I'm coming to you with not the
greatest attitude but that is what I am working on now! I am really
trying to focus on being more positive and not getting too irritated or
put down by small things. I specifically need to work on not getting
irritated at waiting for people. I should have known that that was going
to be a huge thing with companions. Not everyone has the sense of
urgency I feel. I know that if Heavenly Father were standing next to me I
would feel ashamed at how frustrated I've been feeling. A lot of that
specifically centers around this area and how hard it has been. We have
been forced to go tracting and more than a few times I have realized how
much I hate knocking doors. This one lady flipped out at us for opening
her screen door to knock. Rude.
So I told you all about Roy
last week and he has been doing pretty good. We taught him last monday
and then we kept in contact with him everyday since. Because he does
have a traveling job we can only see him on weekends so we had planned
on meeting with him Saturday afternoon. That didnt work out because he
had to stay in Houston an extra day but he still said he wanted to come
to church. We did everything we possibly could to get him there (we even
knocked on his windows at his house), but it turns out he went fishing
until 8:30 am on Sunday in Corpus Cristi so he couldnt make it. I cannot
adequately describe the disappointment you feel when that happens. I'm
not really as excited about him as I had been, but I'm still hoping he
recognizes this as the truth. We had another lesson with him last night
and he got up multiple times during the lesson. He was also super
distracted with the cars passing on the street so pretty much the spirit
wasnt there as strong (which was also our fault) and we were there
longer than we should have been to get through everything.
Roy wasnt the only one we were
expecting at church. We found a lady by the name of Norma Garcez who has
four young kids. She canceled on the two appointments we had set with
her and she didnt come to church when she said she really wanted to (she
supposedly sounded sincere, but with how things are turning out I'm not
feeling too positive about that situation). I'm trying not to lose hope
or spirit, but it is hard when you see person after person disappoint
you or turn away. I'm feeling like it doesnt actually matter what I do
because it doesnt seem to make a difference. I'm frustrated with
everything right now and I miss my family so it is hard for me. I have
no idea what to say or do anymore. I have no idea what questions to ask
or how to address needs. The only strength I feel like I have is that I
can talk to strangers. I'm going to officially drown when I get to
Argentina.
We had a fireside with the
members yesterday and I made cheesecake which everyone loved. We were
hoping to help them get the chispa (spark) to do missionary work in ways
that are possible for them but I have no idea how much it really
helped. Anyway, I love you all!! I hope you are doing well with school
and work and play. I tried to make this sound positive, sorry if it isnt
the best :)
Hermana Allen
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